Found myself raking a few memories whilst listening to my daily play list, now its weird alright cause i could laugh and cry at the same time. Mixed Emotions yes they are, at the same time it helped me get a reality check. One more miscalculated risk taken, and now I realize it has a very grim chance of success. I have seen the special people in my life change time and again,and now I realize its probably cause I always chose to be way too honest with them.Crime does not pay and the truth well it makes you pay these days.
Between emotions and ego I prefer to choose the former, I have one life that I am aware of right now and I want to live it in the most possibly satisfied way not regretting to have kept back what I always wanted to say or do. However there comes a situation in life when if things go wrong between two people, it requires an equal effort to set it right again. Staying quiet, not airing ones opinion, faking, or hiding the truth are simply catalysts to worsen such a kind of situation. Its strange these days how apparent FRIENDS turn out to be FOES in disguise, and its highly painful when people you care for quietly appreciate such losers and feel their hands are tied to speak up and stop whats wrong.
At the end of it all its what one could want, which would stay with you, the hollowness of a namesake friendship or something that was genuine, but just tangled up in misunderstandings, its like that li'l game we play with so many strings tangled up in both our hands, it looks horribly complicated but then we just need to pull one string and alls sorted out. Too bad its a situation I am going through in real life, yes my hands are tied and I even tried approaching someone to set things straight, someone who even though Iam not in touch with anymore still makes a vast amount of difference to me. I have tried my best but like I said earlier, truth these days needs to be justified, at the end of all this I know I have been pushed to various limits of maintaining my sanity, and I have borne it all patiently. Its high time i stop doing this cause every time I have for the people i cared for they have disappointed me by seeing my take as a cause of strife.
I realize what I gave was too much and so Iam taking it back with all my dignity of having proved myself innocent time and again. For the rest of the lot they can very well keep their love for ego and fake people in each of their pockets and forget the genuine ones, cause yes its never going to be easy living with both together. Time has always stood as a testimony for whats true, I know this will be proved in the right sense to all, but maybe it will be too late to undo whats done.
So to all my special people I take my leave from your lives, cause I have always felt suffocated with the hypocrites around us and now i can see the special people turning out to be too. Iam tired of fighting them all alone, anyway be happy, God Bless and if destiny ever gets us to meet again in spite of our trying never to it will probably answer the most thought question of why it happened the way it did and maybe deep down for some or the other reason we'd both miss each other......but then as i said IF WE EVER MEET AGAIN.....
